late night thoughts (and lifetime consequences)

It's been really cool.

A trip to orlando with my best friend
And a visit to an amusement park

Scary
But cool

Texted Criseth most of the night
Plenty of memories
A few pictures
Not to mention bad ass stories

I only screamed 3 times
Amazing, right?

The best parts however
Occured once we got back

Deep talk about
Life
Love
Sex
Money
Army
Ash
Criseth
Nico
Nikki
Me

And talks of another trip in December

Then when everyone goes to sleep
I stay up and outside
Alone
Phone dead
Cig in hand

The thoughts pour like rain

I can't tell the future
And you know what?
I don't even care anymore.

Cause a long talk with myself has been more satisfying then with anyone in months

I will leave July 2nd, 2009
With a highschool diploma
Dignity
And my fucking memories

No one stands a chance against me
Cause this is MY movie

Even if I couldn't effect the beginning
I'll decide the ending
Along with all the tidbits in between

-xo