Sunday, October 12, 2008

i guess this is growing up

held my mom just now while she cried
there was nothing to say
"you'll be gone soon, what will i do without you?"

and as the tears fall right now im wondering
what am i gonna do without her?

my bestfriend dont want shit to do with me
regardless of how hard i try
no matter what i do
what i say
how i say it

for the muscle im building
and the stubborn core driving this machine

its all useless cause i cant push away what really matters.

i couldnt hold onto ash
i wasnt able to keep aron alive
i have failed at everything ive ever given myself entirely too

fuck.
im about as useful as a paper cut
and about as wanted

-xo

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