I get the feeling you think I'm an asshole

It took:
a beating
a weeks worth of ignoring me
a virginity
and an hours long talk that was balls deep

The epiphany I reached?
I won't love for a while.

I can care.
I can get angry.
Offended. Proud. Amused. Disturbed.
But every single thought is of you.

These days of exercise
Those hours of sex
The steamy make-out sessions with bad intentions...

It's amazing how a single memory can knock you flat on your ass.

The fist heads towards me and I remember you saying you'd never want me hurt. So I step into it, I get cut and bleed, then haymaker that motherfuckers jaw.

Spit on the ground and walk away.

Every thought is of you.

-xo