amusing

i think the term is mind fuck, but i could be wrong.

oh, dude.

im so tired.

so very tired

of being tired

thinking about you

all the time

the difference between looking back and moving can be seen right now

with me flipping through old lj entries looking for your name

thinking of the time i wasted making those updates when i shouldve been with you

the rereading of old posts you made talking about loving me forever

almost bursting into tears cause you dont feel that way anymore

no its not the end of the universe but a part of me wishes that it was

believe it or not,

this is me growing up.

step by step

one day i will end up flipping through these entries too

wondering where the time, love and effort went

and laughing at the fact i wasted time doing this shit (updating) instead of homework

i have projects

papers

other useless shit i just dont care about

cause i want you, not the diploma.

-xo